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Friday, August 5, 2016

Big Changes Are Coming!



If you were to tell me 5 days ago that we would be moving out of Port Alsworth THIS MONTH, I would of said you were crazy. If you were to tell me we were not just leaving Port Alsworth but leaving the whole state of Alaska, I wouldn't believe you for a second and I would of laughed at you. A lot.

We love Alaska! So. So. Much.

We have been praying about our future and where we should be. We didn't have any plans in mind but we were open to eventually moving on from Port Alsworth but had no idea where in Alaska or even how. On Tuesday(4 DAYS AGO) Daniel sent me a text asking how I feel about making a move. Soon after that, he came home for lunch and we talked about it some more. Not even an hour after he left from lunch, our brother-in-law, DJ, called out of the blue about a job opening in Waukesha, Wisconsin and wanted to give us the option. We know this was the Lord. Things are just falling into place.

It has been hard to process this and get used to the idea the past 4 days.. but there doesn't seem to be any time for that. We are trusting the Lord, taking a huge step of faith, and selling the majority of our earthly belongings. In less than two weeks, we will be hopping on a jet plane and saying goodbye to our first home we had together. Hopefully not a forever goodbye. Our rough draft plan is to work for a couple years, save up money, and then move up to Fairbanks so Daniel can get his A&P. That makes the move a bit easier knowing we might end back up here some day. :] We will have to wait and see where God leads.

Moving is always a chore and so tiring... but moving out of Alaska is kind of a nightmare. We have to pay per pound just to get our stuff out of our little village and to Anchorage and we have no car up here. Plus.. we have a few months worth of food and toiletries stocked up. =] Lets just say we are going to have a massive garage sale this coming week.

I always wanted to move to Alaska and we love it more than we ever thought possible. We are so thankful we were able to experience this Alaskan life and have opportunities that we never thought we would. Every place has downsides... of course there will be things we won't miss at all but there will be so many things we do miss.
To list just a few:
-Friends that are so dear to us. We will miss you guys so so much.
-The starry nights with northern lights dancing in the sky in the winter and long light summer days we have here.
-Mountains for days and days.
-Our cozy home with a view.
-An almost endless lake to adventure on. So it seems. =]
-Planes. Planes. Planes. Planes. and more Planes. :] I love those things. Wheels or float planes... it doesn't matter to me. :]

The one thing we are really excited about is being a lot closer to family and living in the same town as Amber, Dj, Jaylea, and Zeke. =] It's a little town but it will feel a lot bigger than it used to after living out in the Alaskan bush. Waukesha is where Daniel and I went to school and started dating. We haven't been there since so it will be cool to be back where "we" started.

Even though this move will be really, really hard... God is still good, He still has us in His hands, and He will continue to provide. I wish I could be that person who is excited for a new adventure and ready to pick up and go onto the next season without skipping a beat. But I'm not like that so it's taking me a bit to come around to the idea and I can say that many tears have been shed. Even though this is moving much too fast for our liking, it has been amazing watching God work. Things really are falling into place.

We will hold the memories so close to our hearts and cherish them.

Alaska will always have a part of our hearts. Always.

Soaking up this view as I write this post.

Friday, March 25, 2016

Is This Real Life?


If I were to tell you what my last few days have been like, you'd think I made it up! It's something out of a movie or likely aired on 20/20..right? You never think it would be someone you actually know!

I've been planning on traveling down to Montana to spend time with my Family! The three of us sisters along with Jaylea and Zeke were able to make it; my Grandpa has cancer and we wanted to all be together!

The thought of traveling 30+hours alone was a little overwhelming, saying goodbye to a good friend not knowing when we would see each other again, and just life right now has been hard and challenging! My emotions were an unpredictable roller coaster! 

...little did I know, it was about to get crazier...

The night before my trip, we got a call from Daniels Mom! Seth, my brother-in-law, was missing! What? Missing? How is this even possible? 

I've seen the posters. I've watched the news showing missing people and their crying relatives proclaiming to the world that they won't give up until they find them! It's extremely sad, but I never, not in my lifetime, ever thought it would happen to us! 

Seth was last seen around 10:00am, Wednesday March 23rd! He missed class, his missions trip meeting and never came home that night! So far, it's been over two days since someone has seen or heard from him! His car is also missing! This is out of character for him! He has nothing to run from and so much to look forward to!

The thought of leaving my husband when his brother is missing crushed me! I knew the unknowns were killing Daniel! I felt like I couldn't possibly leave him! I wanted to be there to love him, comfort him, and care for him as this went on! I wanted to be there by his side as new developments unfolded; good or bad! I talked about canceling my flight, but Daniel told me God had this under control and knew I needed to go be with my family and urged me to continue on with my original plans!

So as you can imagine, my emotions were on an all time high! There were tears of sadness because we love Seth and hate hate hate that he is missing, worrying about mom and dad Clifton and family, Rachel and Susanna all the way in Peru, and sad because I felt so helpless up in Alaska even though I knew God knows exactly where he is and He is in control! There were also tears of gratefulness and appreciation for all the love, prayers, and support we were getting from friends and family all over the world!! People shared the post about Seth on Facebook, let me know they were praying, kept checking in for updates, and locals offering to help! I was just so overwhelmed with a mix of emotions!

I just want to wake up from this nightmare. But the sad fact is...this is real life and it's so hard to accept that!
Our Lord is so much bigger than our worries and fears! He's got this and we will find Seth with His help and strength!

Please continue praying for Seth's safety and return and also peace and rest in the Lord for the whole family as we fight many unknowns!

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let you're requests
be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
-Philippians 4:6-7

***I mainly wrote this for myself to help process my thoughts and feelings, but figured I would share for those interested!